25
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	this is clouds and raining.
	this is like a crowd of ghosts.
	this is grey and silent,
	listening to radio snow.
	this is a small brown bird 
	in your bedroom window,
	a wish for warm cookies, 
	getting ready for work.
	this is waiting for the sun,
	chili peppers withering in the pot.
	this is wondering when
	you will be loved like breathing
	why you were never there
	when they needed you
	how you can make the most
	of the time you have left
	why you can't finish 
	anything you start
	and how much joy it will take
	to keep you strong.
	this is 25.