31
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        is the year i stopped dreaming
        stopped hoping for more than i could have
        because i had everything i wanted
        everything that mattered
        31 was the death of ambition
        of aspirations
        and i never even attended
        their funerals

        we learn to live without
        the things we thought we wanted
        i used to be sharp & full of bones
        learning to leave things broken
        i am still whittling away bits of my past
        i have gained more than i've lost
        but i still feel my missing limbs

        wake up
        it's time to begin again
        the problem with bliss
        is you learn how to don't
                don't break that mirror
                don't think that thought
                don't risk unhappiness
        but this time when i fall
        i want to fly


august 04, 2004